Fazer um amigo é um dom, ter um amigo é uma graça, conservar um amigo é uma virtude, mas... ter eu como amiga, fala sério... é uma honra!
Then and now. TBT. 18 years old! Yes, this is me and I was once a model. I even moved to Hollywood to pursue this once dream of mine. This is the first time I have ever shared this past life of mine. I spent 3 years of my life trying to make it big in the high fashion modeling world. I had the right type of body for this industry. Tall and skinny. In this pic I was a scrawny 100lbs at the same height I am now. 5'9". I currently weigh over 140lbs... Was that healthy for me back then? Absolutely not. I was subjected to what the modeling industry needed and what society portrayed as beautiful. Stick figure skinny. I was told I still wasn't thin enough. I struggled with my weight. I purposely didn't eat enough food. I was listening and following along to what others were telling me to do. I was told to be a blank canvas. Pale skin, no tattoos, no muscles, plain hair, plain features. I wasn't in it for myself. I was trying to look a certain way that wasn't truly me or how I wanted to be... Now I'm complete opposite! Thick, muscular, tanned, and tatted! I am now exactly how I want to be! I'm not doing this for anyone else. I don't care what anyone says or thinks about me. There will always be haters. Those who don't like tattoos. Those you think muscles on a women is gross. Those who judge for no reason. But those people don't matter! You can't let what people think about you effect who you are. You can't. Because it's your life. Live it for you and no one else. Moral of this story... Don't be afraid to express who you truly are. And don't ever regret your past for defining who you've become today. Because without the struggle of my past I wouldn't be who I am today.