Day 154 – Lezhe to Lac
KMs Walked – 22
Conversations with several people today highlighted important aspects of my inner journey.
I saw myself in danger of becoming someone superficial, telling amusing stories, lacking genuine warmth and sincerity, loving the stories and the impact they have on people, the ego stroke in a subtle way.
I also felt tired on many levels: tired of walking, of being with other people, of being stared at, of carrying the message of peace. I want to be alone, walking in tranquility and obscurity and silence, but don’t know how to do that while carrying the sign.
Alberto, on the other hand, is buoyant, happy, confident, eager to have conversations with all. I feel him looking through me when I speak, repeating my rote message about our walk, and feel his subtle judgments of me as a peace pilgrim.
It’s all adding up. But I can’t stop now, for to me that would imply failure… and that would haunt me more than any low moments I was having.
Photo credit: https://discoveringalbania.com/2013/05/02/lac/.